This is what I wanted, right? To be useful, busy, and effective again at work. And now I wonder "what was I thinking?". Usually the holidays and the weeks preceeding the holidays are slow times for me at work. I almost always have the luxury of taking a late lunch to cruise into the mall or a store to do my Christmas shopping in relative peace.
Well, it has been a very busy last few weeks, and there has been little (or no time) for a dash to the store here or there. So now I am wondering, geez, what was I thinking? And how can it possibly be that Christmas is next week?
I lay awake at night thinking of all the things I still need to accomplish (oh and did I mention that I actually scaled back the list this year), and making a mental list of what I need to do the next day. Except that I wake up the next morning and cannot remember one thing on that list, just that I had a BIG one to accomplish at 3 am.
So it's like this, my husband said this to me yesterday morning... I think it's time to clear up some disc space, reboot, reinstall. (And he wasn't talking about our computer.) He was talking about me. Maybe he is right. Maybe I just need to breathe. To slow down, to scale back a little, and remember to enjoy.
Breathe....In through the nose, out through the nose.....