It involved many firsts, a couple of successes, one epiphany, and way too many failures to count. Not my best year ever.
Words like turbulent, tense, & gut wrenching describe a year that seemed to fly by (and last forever) all at the same time. I came to understand how hard it can be to fit in and I tasted the bitter disappointment of realizing that giving something your best is not always good enough.
On a positive note, I did learn a LOT. About me. My strengths. My interests. My passions. My limits. And especially, my shortcomings. I immersed myself in the world of digital printing and caught onto its inner workings more quickly than I ever thought I would. I discovered how much I am energized by teaching. And writing. And helping people maximize their potential.
There was a lot of failure for me in 2012. But I persevered, and stretched myself to points far out of my comfort zone. Our household had unexpected developments, which brought about massive regrouping and tears. Many tears. My biggest mistake might have been in losing faith in myself. That fact alone allowed the good of the year to be overshadowed by the bad. And all of it added to the frantic speed at which the year cruised by.
I missed so many little things. Like conversations about nothing.
Or having a clean house.
The joy of cooking.
Fun and laughter of impromptu game & karaoke nights.
The satisfaction from getting a deal while shopping for nothing specific.
Oh, sleep. I missed so much sleep.
And I missed being happy.
So it is with a huge sigh of relief that I let go of 2012 and all its angst. And replace it with a sigh of anticipation for 2013 and the affirmation that this year will be different. And better. If for no other reason than my approach and attitude will be different. And better. I’m starting anew.
The three words I plan to live and breathe in 2013 are:
Simplify | Appreciate | Linger
Simplify: To make less complex or complicated, make plainer or easier.
Appreciate: To value, to be fully conscious of, to be aware of, to raise in value.
Linger: to dwell in contemplation, thought or enjoyment; to dawdle; to walk slowly; to saunter along.
Oh, and while I am at it, I might throw in several savors,
… some dawdling,
A traipse or two...
...And at least 1000 dillydallys.
Anyone care to join me? What about you, what will you be doing in 2013?